Drowning in Your Destructive Love

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I’m growing tired of these games you constantly play. 

How did I get here? 

You were supposed to be my lover, my everything, but that’s not the way it is anymore. Now you’re a person I don’t even recognize. 

You used to be kind, but it was nothing but lies. I don’t know which way I’m going or who I am. I gave up so much of myself that I no longer exist. 

I don’t know how I ended up in this place of uncertainty. It seems, I’m always trying to please, even when I’m begging on my knees. I just want what was, not this hellish nightmare that you put me through. 

Please have mercy on my soul because it has been shattered into a million pieces and I don’t know if I can go on, drowning in your destructive love.

 — Nicole Barden 11/28/2021