Grown Tired

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The words you say on a daily basis are starting to accumulate into mounds of sorrow.

You aren’t aware your little digs are piling up and eroding my love for you.

I have grown tired of being your punching bag, and tired of receiving your shade. I have grown tired of being knocked down again and again.

I am doing everything within my power to remain calm and loving. To continue to respect our vows, yet time after time your words are slicing my heart deeper and deeper.

I have tried to tell you how I feel, but you act like I’m attacking you.

We need help. I need to be able to have a conversation where my words are actually received, not just deflected.

I’ve come to the point where I think we should seek counseling. So we can figure out if this marriage is worth saving or if going our separate ways will stop the pain.

— Nicole Barden 6/20/2021

Originally published in The Power of Poetry on Medium