Not Sleeping

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To those that have all the money…

You may be rich with a nice home, nice cars, a boat for summer fun, and a vacation home so you can escape your perfectly happy facade. Having all these things yet not being happy is simply an illusion that you are portraying to the world.

Your life may be envied by everyone around you…

Yet…

Why do you drink so much?

Why do you feel the need for total control over every aspect of your life?

What is that gnawing feeling that comes creeping into your soul while you are trying to sleep in your king size bed as your partner is as far to the other side as possible?

For you sleep alone and the only constant thing that runs through your head on your quest for a peaceful night’s sleep is

“Am I loved?”

“Am I even liked?”

You answer yes to these questions that are on a constant loop.

So take another pill, because…

If you’re not happy with yourself, if you don’t even like yourself, you will never fully be yourself. Always trying to show everyone how great you are doing and what a perfect life you have except…

You’re the one not sleeping.

— Nicole Barden 3/9/2021

Originally published in iPoetry on Medium