The Hours I Spend

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The hours I spend escaping from my life are hours that could be put to good use.

I shouldn’t need to be distracted from my current situation. 

That should be a clue that things aren’t working for me but against me.

How can I find time to binge watch an entire season of a show, yet I have no motivation to get my list of chores done?

You see, in the bingeing I have the ability to zone out and rest. 

The chores would be easier to keep up on if my job was something that didn’t drain me physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

So, instead of coming home and doing my chores, I end up lying lifeless on the couch trying to regain some strength so I can do it all again tomorrow.

I wish I had a job that fulfilled me on all the levels that this job so easily drains from me.

— Nicole Barden 4/3/2021

Originally published in Blue Insights on Medium